[Ren winces at the claws digging into his knee, but he just calmly starts tucking the phones he's holding away so he'll be able to grab Kishi with free hands.]
Even if I find out, will it matter if I have to call you or text you for days before you'll respond to me?
[Casually slides into the topic he wanted to bring up because otherwise he's not going to get a chance. This is an excellent plan.]
[Kishi may have been a very playful and friendly cat, but he did not know how to be gentle with his claws, as he demonstrated this by attempting to climb Ren's arm.]
That would imply you're worth listening to in the first place. So far nothing you've sent me is even worhty of my attention.
[Ah yes, it would seem he is now a playground. Yep, Ren's just going to...let the kitten climb his arm. Yep. That's fine.
Because it would seem that Hibari actually was looking at what he sent, if only for just long enough to decide he didn't care. That's better than deleting them without looking, like he'd been a little afraid might be happening. And that makes him happy enough that he can put up with a few scratches on his arm.]
But if I find out what happened or someone is in danger, that would be, wouldn't it? You can't write off everyone you don't feel like listening to, especially if you're going to decide that as soon as you meet someone, because sometimes they're the ones who have information you need. Information doesn't care if you like someone or not.
[Once Kishi is more or less attached to his shoulder, Ren carefully stands back up again.]
I just want to make a deal with you, but I really needed to have your attention first, since I have no idea if you look at what I send you or not.
[Kishi didn't care about Ren's opinions, he liked high places, and he hasn't seen Ren for awhile, so there's that.
Of course, Hibari was less than pleased that he'd somehow revealed to Ren that he actually looked at-and ignored-most of the messages that the god sent him, but it didn't show on his face.]
I don't see how the plum blossoms blooming are important to anyone's well being.
I write off people like you, who share every trivial detail of the day before even saying something remotely important. I don't need things like that.
[But Hibari even remembers things he sent other than the kittens, that's exciting. Disappointing that he didn't seem to like them, but still a little exciting. He's also pretty careful not to let that show on his face.]
I'm not going to send you anything important in a text. I don't mind if you ignore those. If it's an emergency or something actually important, I'll call you, so I'd really like it if you'd answer in that case.
Is that all right? I don't even mind if you want to stay here and ignore me otherwise--[oh no, he minds, he minds so much, but if it means Hibari is somewhere safe...]--but I need to know that I can get in contact with you if it seems like one of us is in danger. I don't want the other day to happen again because you wouldn't answer me. Again.
[The words slipped out before Hibari could even realize what they meant and how much he meant them. He wasn't one to take things back, so he didn't regret it, even if he was frustrated him with how much the god could probably tell he was reading his mannerisms.
Because really, he wasn't stupid.]
You want me around. You want me as your weapon. You don't want me dead because I'm YOUR weapon-Hakkai aready told me. So don't lie, because I know exactly what you want.
If I didn't know any better, I'd tell you to release me right now.
[Ah crap, Hibari wasn't supposed to pick up on that...he's just really not good at saying how he's actually feeling...]
I don't want you dead for a lot of reasons. Even if you weren't my shinki, I wouldn't want that.
And...if that's really what you want, all you need to do is ask.
[He's not really sure who would want to take Hibari in after that...but that's a little too mean for him to say right now. And it's really not something he wants either...
He sighs a little and eyes Hibari sadly. If he really wants to know how Ren honestly feels about this, then he can at least try.]
But you're right, I would like you to be around. I don't like how vulnerable I feel without you. I don't like feeling what you're feeling and not knowing the reason. I'd really like to get to know you better, and I'd like to be able show you that I like fighting powerful opponents too and there's a reason one of my duties is war. I'd like to show you that I can enjoy plum blossoms and still make whoever killed you regret ever being born.
But I'm not going to force you. I told you that. You're the one assuming that because I'm...a god that I just want to use you, but that's never been my intention.
[He wouldn't get as far in his life as he had without being perceptive about these things, its just his natural irriation for people often got in his way. He didn't want to know what people felt, he WANTED them to leave him alone.
And he felt, somehow, that no matter what he did, Ren just wouldn't leave him alone. Not even death or him insulting the god ten times over had stopped him from being annoying.]
All gods want to do is use people. That's what those who have power do. That's why I will not suffer being a fool. So who are you to say you won't succumb to anything like that?
I don't need or want anyone to be caring about my wellbeing, and I highly doubt you should be the one feeling vulnerable since you can apparently sense what I'm feeling.
I feel vulnerable because I can't fight the ayakashi without you. I got in trouble the other day too. [He was just smart enough to run away...eventually.] But I don't really want either of us feeling vulnerable.
[Aaaand that sure is Kishi trying to attack his hair. Ren takes a moment to try to pacify the kitten with his finger and his ponytail before saying anything else.]
You know, until a month ago, I was just as human as you.
[And he's still REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE with thinking of himself otherwise. Primarily because of that little point Hibari had to bring up about power. And he does end up smiling a little as he goes on, but it's so bitter it would be hard to take it as him not treating this seriously.]
No one is more worried about giving into the lure of power more than me. But if I did take a step onto that path, you'd never keep quiet about it, right? So if I hate it and you hate it, we can both make sure I don't.
I'd bite you to death if you ever try to take advantage of me.
[The thing Hibari was most worried about was the fact that maybe Ren could possibly stop him from doing anything. That the power was enough he could be cast helpless.
He didn't feel vulnerable. He didn't care about Ren being human. He didn't WANT any of this. And it was all things that his god could feel raging inside of him right now and he absolutely hated it.]
[Ren briefly gives Hibari a much brighter smile and nods in agreement of that first statement. Not that he's going to mention his first-hand experience, but he knows exactly how Hibari reacts to anything that even remotely resembles trying to take advantage of him. It's why, while Ren might not trust his morals otherwise yet, he's pretty comfortable relying on Hibari for this one particular thing.
But the smile doesn't last much longer than the nod, because it's just going to put Hibari more on edge the longer it's there and especially in relation with the rest of his worries.]
I don't want to be privy to your secrets like this either. But I can't just turn it off...
I'd really prefer it if we could just talk about things, though. I have a couple things I'd really like to talk about... [His hand darts briefly to the back of his beck and he sighs.] But I wasn't going to bring that up today.
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Date: 2016-06-05 02:54 am (UTC)Why not? You don't even know what I want to talk about. Maybe it's important.
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Date: 2016-06-05 11:13 pm (UTC)[He probably wasn't going to let that go unless somehow he was convinced it was just the ayakashi. Meanwhile, Kishi started climbing up Ren's knee.]
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Date: 2016-06-06 12:43 am (UTC)Even if I find out, will it matter if I have to call you or text you for days before you'll respond to me?
[Casually slides into the topic he wanted to bring up because otherwise he's not going to get a chance. This is an excellent plan.]
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Date: 2016-06-06 02:41 am (UTC)That would imply you're worth listening to in the first place. So far nothing you've sent me is even worhty of my attention.
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Date: 2016-06-06 04:17 am (UTC)Because it would seem that Hibari actually was looking at what he sent, if only for just long enough to decide he didn't care. That's better than deleting them without looking, like he'd been a little afraid might be happening. And that makes him happy enough that he can put up with a few scratches on his arm.]
But if I find out what happened or someone is in danger, that would be, wouldn't it? You can't write off everyone you don't feel like listening to, especially if you're going to decide that as soon as you meet someone, because sometimes they're the ones who have information you need. Information doesn't care if you like someone or not.
[Once Kishi is more or less attached to his shoulder, Ren carefully stands back up again.]
I just want to make a deal with you, but I really needed to have your attention first, since I have no idea if you look at what I send you or not.
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Date: 2016-06-07 12:02 am (UTC)Of course, Hibari was less than pleased that he'd somehow revealed to Ren that he actually looked at-and ignored-most of the messages that the god sent him, but it didn't show on his face.]
I don't see how the plum blossoms blooming are important to anyone's well being.
I write off people like you, who share every trivial detail of the day before even saying something remotely important. I don't need things like that.
So say your piece, and get out.
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Date: 2016-06-07 12:33 am (UTC)[But Hibari even remembers things he sent other than the kittens, that's exciting. Disappointing that he didn't seem to like them, but still a little exciting. He's also pretty careful not to let that show on his face.]
I'm not going to send you anything important in a text. I don't mind if you ignore those. If it's an emergency or something actually important, I'll call you, so I'd really like it if you'd answer in that case.
Is that all right? I don't even mind if you want to stay here and ignore me otherwise--[oh no, he minds, he minds so much, but if it means Hibari is somewhere safe...]--but I need to know that I can get in contact with you if it seems like one of us is in danger. I don't want the other day to happen again because you wouldn't answer me. Again.
idk where this came from srorry
Date: 2016-06-07 12:53 am (UTC)[The words slipped out before Hibari could even realize what they meant and how much he meant them. He wasn't one to take things back, so he didn't regret it, even if he was frustrated him with how much the god could probably tell he was reading his mannerisms.
Because really, he wasn't stupid.]
You want me around. You want me as your weapon. You don't want me dead because I'm YOUR weapon-Hakkai aready told me. So don't lie, because I know exactly what you want.
If I didn't know any better, I'd tell you to release me right now.
:DDD it's beautiful
Date: 2016-06-07 03:15 am (UTC)I don't want you dead for a lot of reasons. Even if you weren't my shinki, I wouldn't want that.
And...if that's really what you want, all you need to do is ask.
[He's not really sure who would want to take Hibari in after that...but that's a little too mean for him to say right now. And it's really not something he wants either...
He sighs a little and eyes Hibari sadly. If he really wants to know how Ren honestly feels about this, then he can at least try.]
But you're right, I would like you to be around. I don't like how vulnerable I feel without you. I don't like feeling what you're feeling and not knowing the reason. I'd really like to get to know you better, and I'd like to be able show you that I like fighting powerful opponents too and there's a reason one of my duties is war. I'd like to show you that I can enjoy plum blossoms and still make whoever killed you regret ever being born.
But I'm not going to force you. I told you that. You're the one assuming that because I'm...a god that I just want to use you, but that's never been my intention.
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Date: 2016-06-08 01:28 am (UTC)And he felt, somehow, that no matter what he did, Ren just wouldn't leave him alone. Not even death or him insulting the god ten times over had stopped him from being annoying.]
All gods want to do is use people. That's what those who have power do. That's why I will not suffer being a fool. So who are you to say you won't succumb to anything like that?
I don't need or want anyone to be caring about my wellbeing, and I highly doubt you should be the one feeling vulnerable since you can apparently sense what I'm feeling.
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Date: 2016-06-08 03:38 am (UTC)[Aaaand that sure is Kishi trying to attack his hair. Ren takes a moment to try to pacify the kitten with his finger and his ponytail before saying anything else.]
You know, until a month ago, I was just as human as you.
[And he's still REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE with thinking of himself otherwise. Primarily because of that little point Hibari had to bring up about power. And he does end up smiling a little as he goes on, but it's so bitter it would be hard to take it as him not treating this seriously.]
No one is more worried about giving into the lure of power more than me. But if I did take a step onto that path, you'd never keep quiet about it, right? So if I hate it and you hate it, we can both make sure I don't.
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Date: 2016-06-19 12:42 am (UTC)[The thing Hibari was most worried about was the fact that maybe Ren could possibly stop him from doing anything. That the power was enough he could be cast helpless.
He didn't feel vulnerable. He didn't care about Ren being human. He didn't WANT any of this. And it was all things that his god could feel raging inside of him right now and he absolutely hated it.]
I don't want you to be privy to my secrets.
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Date: 2016-06-19 08:20 am (UTC)But the smile doesn't last much longer than the nod, because it's just going to put Hibari more on edge the longer it's there and especially in relation with the rest of his worries.]
I don't want to be privy to your secrets like this either. But I can't just turn it off...
I'd really prefer it if we could just talk about things, though. I have a couple things I'd really like to talk about... [His hand darts briefly to the back of his beck and he sighs.] But I wasn't going to bring that up today.